Have you ever kind of felt like your brain was in a fog, and you weren’t really living at all? That you weren’t really you and your thoughts weren’t really yours? And then it’s like you wake up and realize what’s going on, and you take a step back and start to switch back into you. It’s like your thoughts were tampered and influenced into something so different. But after you wake up they become yours again, and you are like oh yeah, that’s who I am.
It smelled like you and it made me cry. It made me realize how much I fucking miss you, and it made me remember how close we were. And when I read it, it made me see how much you cared. I really hope you still care, because I still care. It didn’t make me mad at first, but now I’m really mad that all of this happened because of one stupid decision. Do you think we would still be if that night never happened? I guess it’s too late for that now. You are really amazing, and I know you don’t see it, but you are. And it hurts because I don’t really know where you stand anymore. I want to know that you haven’t lost everything we had. I want to believe that. But I’m not so sure it’s true.
If you’re in a rut Trust your gut It speaks the truth And will get you loose So you can continue on Till your final dawn In perfect repose And abundant meadows Of your hearts desire And your loins fire But you gotta let go To let the real you show So the Universe can yield A heart thats been healed Let go to breathe Trust what you see Love is the key Now just let it be